Idk...

 Update: You guys I'm not upset/sad or at all currently feeling like this in the comic. xD I made this out of boredom and because I have felt like this several times before. Just felt like making a mini comic is all.
There is no doubt I'll feel like this again, I always do but it never lasts and I get over it fairly quickly until the next time. Right now I don't feel like this at all..... also as a side note I don't actually cry about it. xD Just shows what I'm feeling on the inside when it happens.

The people I do wish to ship with don't know I do and I don't plan on telling them.... ever. Unless they them self ask me if they're one of the people I want to ship with. I'm too much of a coward and I'm afraid of just getting rejected, rather it's because I'm not friends with them, my art is not good enough, or they just don't like my OCs.
I know people say go for it, you'll never know until you try but think about this...... If someone randomly asked you to ship with them and they're not really a friend or you don't know them that well or you really don't want to ship with them what do you say? You'll end up in an awkward situation and unsure how to say no without any hurt feelings. I don't want to put those people through that and what's worse then hearing a no is no response at all.
Yes I tried to make friends with them and I still try.... slowly. I try to ask for RPs..... never did get any answer to my asks. v.v But I'm fine with just hiding in the shadows secretly shipping for now. Maybe one day I will make friends with them and possibly ship, maybe one day I'll have the courage to ask, but right now I don't. Unless one of those amazing people ask to ship with me first.... but I doubt that'll ever happen. xD
Don't ask who's on my 'Admins I wanna ship with' list. I'm not telling you.... unless you're one of the names on the list. xD
Only a percentage of the peeps I wanna ship with are actually 'watching' me back though....... but I doubt they're even looking at my shizz and possibly reading this, but I'm not expecting to see comments from them. xD
Well anyways I just wanted to clear this up with you guys.... ^^

Thank you!<3